Wht i do best, maybe too good at times. I get lost in my studies or do i hide in my studies? either way it works. I dont feel pain whn im doing accounting. I dnt miss him whn im writting a tax memo. I knw it sounds dorky but its true. People are always telling me how smart and focus i am but its just a cop out, its my gallon of ice cream, my stack of sad cd's my fix....it keeps me frm going insane....if i occupy my brain and i wont think i cant think of the pain that creeps through wheneva i attempt a study break, so i study till im just about to fall asleep. Unfortunaly my dreams dnt like accounting because thats were we meet, him and i but its no fairy tale type of dream...its a OUCH my heart is aching type of dream, a i cant stop shaking type of dream. Then i wake up and my fix is nxt to me and it doesnt hurt as much anymore....